Finally, I am feeling free again.
I feel so lucky I can detach myself from the very toxic person (ex) who is very selfish, uncompassionate, was born apathetic and broken, lazy with no self-discipline, lost, bad, irresponsible and neglectful, childish, careless, misanthropic, manipulative, rude, disrespectful, dirty, toxic and so on.
I chose to walk away after getting back to him several times in 5 years. He taught me so many life lessons that getting into a relationship with the bad person can destroy my life and my after life and after life.
Being with him feels definitely like hell, unfulfilled my live values and goals cause we are very different people when I love to give and contribute, he likes to keep things for his own ,only share when it is good for him. He is such the worse soul I have ever seen when he was born with good money and good look and good connection and good education. He destroyed my life, my mind , my dream, my freedom, because of him, I had to sacrifice everything including my family and friends, career and dreams, I get nothing in return but his harrassment and abandonment. He never cares or love me. He is just having his own illusion about love and his trauma and mental illness.
I am getting back on track of self-love and finding my own happiness.
Even tho, there are a lot of strings and memories on how much I love him, the old love letter that I wrote for him and his kind of love to me. I am trying my best to overcome it. I need to detach myself from all the memories and act like he doesn't;t matter to me anymore.
You will be gone.
It is long gone forever , Lawrence.
You are a dead man to me now.
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